Friday, 6 July 2012
Staying open whilst feeling vulnerable
I had gone back to bed a few mornings ago, after making my daughters lunch and seeing her off to school. i climbed back under the covers with a deep feeling of sadness and an aching in my heart. These days my life is full of so much love which i experience within my body and deep in my being and at the same time there are shifts of old pain that i experience. it was a day of shifting!
As i lay under the covers, curled up in a ball...............feeling, i became aware of my flow of inner wisdom, or my angelic selves (this energy has changed from feeling like one Being to many). This guidance was saying to open, to open my vulnerable wound and let the love in. i could see the way i was curling up was like a bandaid over an open wound, a wound that would really benefit from the air, but for the sake of feeling comforted in the moment we cover it up, even though in the long run it takes longer to heal. the wisdom was showing me that if i was to open, emotionally,( so really allow the tears or what ever wanted to be expressed to flow), physically (to open my arms, open my chest, move about) and energetically (i tend to use my mind and my breath to move the energy in and around my body), then love can flow in to those areas that are in pain. Flow can happen, energy can move, all the time me restrict ourselves in pain that flow of energy becomes stuck. its time to feel and allow the natural flow of life force or love (to me this is the same energy) to do what it naturally does. Life naturally loves itself.
i could see love coming to us from so many aspects/beings/dimensions. But we have to be open in order to receive and benefit from this. it is so beautiful and it is there in each and every moment, alway and forever. When i am writing, i often hear the words "you were born in love, and in love you shall remain" We can never not be in love, we can only perceive we are not.
i wanted to share this as i found it really helpful and this message has been coming for a little while now in different ways. i guess by sharing i hope that some one may benefit from it and that this energy of receiving love can ground, take root and become the norm.
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
A shift in awareness - a time for empowerment
I've noticed over the past week a shift in how i respond to situations and feelings.
The first experience that i was fully aware of was when the father of my daughter pulled out his financial support towards a life changing trip to Ghana my daughter is going on with the school. We need to find altogether around £1500, which does feel a little crazy as I'm not even sure how the rent will get paid this month. But sometimes in life you just know something is right, and i know with all my heart this trip is right for my daughter, there is a feeling in me that she has to go!
So the conversation with her dad went something like, Him "i cant afford this trip, i just can't do it" (this is a day after the first instalment was due and we had already paid the deposit) my response "S**T!" stunned for a moment and then my usual response of not feeling supported kicked in, but unusually it didn't last long, and a stronger part of me took over and i thought "No, this can't end here, she has to go!" i began to feel empowered, and an energy that once could have dragged me down began to shift into an energy of feeling passionate and empowered.
After we had spoken i began to see from a different perspective, that in actual fact, even if he wasn't aware of it, he was supporting me. He gifted me with the opportunity to act in a new way, to not feel like a helpless victim, but to become empowered and do step out of my box.
I saw a way of creating the money. i decided i would create a group on facebook and invite my entire friends list to make donations. i was amazed, within 24 hours i had exactly the money her dad would have given me, and more!!!! so i can pay the first instalment. if you would like to follow this group you can find it here http://www.facebook.com/groups/457612117590802/
there has been such wonderful reactions to this opportunity for support, people really are beautiful and kind hearted, I'm deeply touched and grateful!
As well as all that going on, i have been going through a lot with my teeth, a major filling feel out, followed by intense pain, an unpleasant experience at my old dentist, resulting in me really honouring myself enough to manifest a really kind caring dentist, who today refilled my tooth and extracted the one next to it. which was all quite painless, amazingly!
i called on much angelic support and felt them all the way through the treatment, i told my tooth and my body that i loved it over and over.
On the way there however i was experiencing a lot of nervous feelings in my stomach. I was sat in traffic and began to play with this energy. i noticed that i could sit with the feeling and tell myself it was nerves and feel nervous, or i could take that energy (without naming it) and i could turn it into a feeling of strength. i find this fascinating................and i'm going to play with it lots.
I sense there is a shift in me in how i experience and react to the situations in life. Seems like these shifts are happening as a result to the venus transit. i hope to write more about this as it unfolds, but its late and i need to nurse my body as it recovers from my trip to the denstist!
blessings and love to you xxx
I've noticed over the past week a shift in how i respond to situations and feelings.
The first experience that i was fully aware of was when the father of my daughter pulled out his financial support towards a life changing trip to Ghana my daughter is going on with the school. We need to find altogether around £1500, which does feel a little crazy as I'm not even sure how the rent will get paid this month. But sometimes in life you just know something is right, and i know with all my heart this trip is right for my daughter, there is a feeling in me that she has to go!
So the conversation with her dad went something like, Him "i cant afford this trip, i just can't do it" (this is a day after the first instalment was due and we had already paid the deposit) my response "S**T!" stunned for a moment and then my usual response of not feeling supported kicked in, but unusually it didn't last long, and a stronger part of me took over and i thought "No, this can't end here, she has to go!" i began to feel empowered, and an energy that once could have dragged me down began to shift into an energy of feeling passionate and empowered.
After we had spoken i began to see from a different perspective, that in actual fact, even if he wasn't aware of it, he was supporting me. He gifted me with the opportunity to act in a new way, to not feel like a helpless victim, but to become empowered and do step out of my box.
I saw a way of creating the money. i decided i would create a group on facebook and invite my entire friends list to make donations. i was amazed, within 24 hours i had exactly the money her dad would have given me, and more!!!! so i can pay the first instalment. if you would like to follow this group you can find it here http://www.facebook.com/groups/457612117590802/
there has been such wonderful reactions to this opportunity for support, people really are beautiful and kind hearted, I'm deeply touched and grateful!
As well as all that going on, i have been going through a lot with my teeth, a major filling feel out, followed by intense pain, an unpleasant experience at my old dentist, resulting in me really honouring myself enough to manifest a really kind caring dentist, who today refilled my tooth and extracted the one next to it. which was all quite painless, amazingly!
i called on much angelic support and felt them all the way through the treatment, i told my tooth and my body that i loved it over and over.
On the way there however i was experiencing a lot of nervous feelings in my stomach. I was sat in traffic and began to play with this energy. i noticed that i could sit with the feeling and tell myself it was nerves and feel nervous, or i could take that energy (without naming it) and i could turn it into a feeling of strength. i find this fascinating................and i'm going to play with it lots.
I sense there is a shift in me in how i experience and react to the situations in life. Seems like these shifts are happening as a result to the venus transit. i hope to write more about this as it unfolds, but its late and i need to nurse my body as it recovers from my trip to the denstist!
blessings and love to you xxx
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