Today is Mothers day here in England on a sunny Sunday morning. My teenage daughter is still fast asleep in and bed and I've just completed a large pile of washing up.
i had read a post on Facebook where a mother was celebrating other mothers who had not had the usual breakfast in bed, bunch of flowers etc, i thought about the conversation with my daughter where she had said that she had no money to buy me anything and I'd replied that i really didn't mind. Then there was a part in me that thought "i wished i hadn't said that, i do want to be celebrated!"
And so, where and who is the ultimate place and person to celebrate you as a mother?
Yes its you and it takes place inside!
So i took a moment to really breathe in to all that i do
all that i am and
all that i give
and i said
Thank you
Thank you me for being a wonderful Mother
Today i celebrate you!
Mother in me
i celebrate you and i am honoured that you chose to birth through me.
todays video is about flowing with what is happening with out resistance.
i had manifested a video camera and had been excited to take it with me. I'd been dreaming of me in nature creating films. which i did, only to find that i was unable to upload it.
i begin this recording with a slight feeling of disappointment, than i have a moment to check in and realise I'm actually not disappointed!
i notice from time to time that i behave in a way that i think i should. i should be disappointed that i couldn't upload the video, but actually, it really didn't matter! and maybe, or most certainly what i share here is what wanted to happen, what wanted to flow through me, so how can i be disappointed with that!
all moments are here for our enjoyment.
let go and let flow!
i spent much of my day today walking alongside streams and where they were clogged with debris i cleared the way for the water to flow (well in a few places anyway!) and now i see how very perfect that was for me!
Take it lightly, there’s no need to move
fast, allow yourself to move with ease and grace as you take steps forward, as
you align more and more to the vibrations that match your true energy. There is
a really big transition that is taking place on the planet at this time with
people aligning to their essence energy. Many are translating this as wanting
to know what their mission or purpose is, but when you begin to call something
your purpose you begin to engage the mind in an old paradigm way, where as if
you can begin to see that you are now aligning yourself to your true essence,
releasing the programs of the old paradigm in order to ground within your
physical body your unique vibrational essence, you will see that this is your
calling and all will flow from this place. This is the energy that moves you
forward.
So we suggest that you let go of the
control and grip of the mind trying to work out what you “should” be doing and relax
fully into who you are. The more you relax into you, into your vibration the more
you will naturally align with what brings you joy, what fires you up and gets
you passionate. These experiences will naturally begin to happen in your
reality.
(I’m seeing that the elementals can read
our essence signature and help us to align and create situations that are for
our highest good and the highest good of all beings everywhere.)
Its time to come into the realm of energy,
the realm of feeling. When you feel complete with your energy, when it is fully
integrated within your being then you will be manifesting it on the outside. It
is more to focus on being that energy rather than on what you can do in the
outside world. When you are able to ground your essence energy into your
physical form you will have a much clearer feeling as to which direction to
take, you will be able to use your intuition in a much clearer grounded way,
and you won’t be moving from your woulds shoulds and could’avs!
Affirmation
My intention is to fully ground my vibrational essence into
this physical form, to align to the reality where I am fully present as my
essence and to be manifesting my essence into my reality.
this feels like a crazy ride right now, i have no idea what i'm doing and i love that!
this feels like pure play, even if at times i'm seeming serious, this is fun to me! after recording this in the car i went to pick my daughter up from her trapeze class. she got in the car, and was asking what had happened, why was i so happy!? hehe, now if you had seen the other videos i made whilst waiting for her in the car!!!! well i couldn't help but laugh! and smile. this is bringing me joy so much joy!
There are days where stillness is all that wishes to happen.
i so often feel i "should" be doing things. especially when i believe i have just found a new source of energy! i believed it would just keep going, which it does, but it will have highs and lows. and today my energy is running oh so softly.
i am unable to push it, to change it.
instead i must sink into it until it becomes a delicious pool of nurturing softness.
thank you for this yummy moment when i realise i can experience this stillness as bliss.
ah.......... yes there it is, complete release of anything outside of this moment, just the soft pitapata of my fingers on the key board
Day 4 of my 30 day video challenge which has also turned into blogging too, i love the way one thing leads to another.
Today's topic came about this morning by looking at celebrating achievements in my life. i was able to feel feelings of celebration for my jewellery creations, so that was great and gave me a sense of what it felt like to experience celebration for myself. i then moved on to my mothering but was unable to find that same sense of celebration with in me. This was a little bit of a surprise as i thought i thought i was doing a good job, which is actually true, but there was an underlying feeling in me that I'm not a very good mother. and i just couldn't receive this feeling of celebration. Then i heard a question
"How much better would it be for my daughter if i was to believe i was a good mum?"
Earlier in my morning pages i had been writing about her and what she is going through within herself and i had asked "what is it about this situation that I'm not getting?"
and so my answer to that question came to me through a new question.
i could see straight away that by me not feeling confident and not believing in myself as a Mother i was creating very shaky unstable ground and space for her to grow in. And i realised in that moment that i owed it to her and to myself to step fully into honouring and celebrating myself as a Mother. Its never to late to create a new foundation and base to live from.
We learn by example and naturally pick up and respond to that which we are around, especially as children. i had learnt this from my Mother and she from hers and i can feel that it goes way back! Dis empowerment and lack of confidence.
But it doesn't have to stay that way. i worked on clearing the patterns within me, using Ho'oponopono
I'm sorry (i recognise something in me is out of alignment)
please forgive me (releasing the belief)
i love you (bringing in love to replace the thought)
thank you (gratitude works in so many magical ways)
i also asked that any patterns within me attached to this be uncreated, and in this moment i ask that they be uncreated in my ancestors and in my future family line including my daughter. Thank you!
once i had done this i asked again if i could celebrate myself as a Mother and i could, not only that i felt a real shift in my being, i felt empowered! how exciting!
So if we wish to create a stable loving environment for our children, we must first create within our selves a loving stable environment. if we are living a life where we honour, love and respect ourselves then that is what our children will learn. Children are one of the best tools for self realising! They mirror everything, they are such a gift to us. (a white feather just floated past my window! a big universal YES to that!)
So if you see your child going through stresses or problems in their lives, i would say to ask yourself first, "where is this in me?"...........................
This morning i felt a little bleary eyed and a tad vulnerable
i hadn't thought about how it might be to have to show up each day no matter what state i was in. i didn't feel particularly inspired to talk about anything either, so a free flow of words was what happened!
i'm feeling now though that possibly a little direction and planning might be what is needed to inspire myself.
There is always a silver lining! always something to be gained by each experience no matter how that experience may seem in the moment.
so here i am, showing up in my slightly vulnerable state, determined and excited to see my 30 days right through to the end!
Here i am! ready to bare all. maybe not all but certainly a bit.
I've given myself a challenge to do a video every day for 30 days.
i have been feeling really stuck in my life, stuck and uninspired of late. with a lot of deep journey work and release, or integrating. which seems to have left little time or energy for other things.
i have also recognised that i have been staying in my comfort zone, in the place that i know, but what i am discovering now is that my comfort zone is actually no longer comfortable!
last night i looked back at the videos i recorded over a year ago now, and remembered how much i enjoyed doing them. i became so excited by the thought of doing them again, that i have decided to do one every day for 30 days to see what unfolds.
since making this choice last night, there has been one after another signs from the universe to go for it. i'm going to make these videos as a way to know myself deeper, to express myself more and to flow my creativity..........and to bring in more magic, more wonder, more joy! its time to play.
i desire a magical life and would love that to be the focus of my videos.
today felt magical. after recording this video, i took myself out with my camera to walk and be alone in nature, one of my absolutely favourite pass times.
i found myself on a hill that i had never walked before, despite having grown up just a few miles away from it! its a magical hill fort covered in thousands of ant hills. i didn't know what they were when i was up there and the image i received was that the hill made a big fairy city! and each little hill was a portal into the hill itself. i saw these beautiful white ethereal beings entering the hill via these little mounds. i get the feeling there is a lot of water inside this hill or beneath it, it felt very powerful. i'm loving exploring these hills and keep finding new places that i never knew where there.
i walked in the woods around the bottom of the hill and enjoyed the early spring warmth, watched rabbits, ate a few Primroses, they are so yummy! it was such a gorgeous walk, i felt so at peace, so connected to life, to nature.
when i got back to the car and drove off i noticed the name of the lane was New Way Lane! that feels like a great message. its time to do things in a new way. The old ways no longer works and it is time for me/us to find our own unique ways through our own lives. we have been doing things the way we think we should be doing it, based on so many outside influences. its time for us to remember who we are and do things in a New Way.
on my home i was blessed to see the rising moon (full tomorrow) hanging low in the early evening sky. dusky blues and a cream coloured moon. totally magical! i wasn't quite done with my trip out, so i drove past my road and followed the moon to the top of the hill, where i was greeted by the most beautiful sun set. these two seemingly opposite energies of night and day hanging in the same space together.
it certainly seems that now is a time of integrating both the light and dark.
so i am going to embrace doing things differently. i desire for my life to change and so i must make changes and try some new expereinces and ways of doing things. yippie! its going to be fun!
